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Sick and tired
As I were 5-6 years old I got very sick. I meanly had high fever and vomited. I don't know what it was, but since then I always stayed tired. Also since then I have rarely real fever and I only vomit when I have a severe allergic reaction.
In the morning it was hard to get out of bed and so I overslept regularly. In the weekends I slept, if possible, till about 4 o'clock in the afternoon.
When I was 13 years old I did get trouble with my bowels. I had a lot of pain and didn’t know how to sit or lay down to ease the pain a bit. The pain was on the right side so they thought it was my appendix. In two years time I have seen several doctors, they have checked my bowel, but nobody knew what it was. Some said it was stress, others said it was because a lack of vitamins and so on. Eventually after 2,5 years I was hospitalised for surgery, there they found my bowel blocked by blood. After the surgery they told me that they have removed the blood, but that they didn’t had an answer how this could happen. Afterwards there was nothing written about this in my papers. (Addition: Only in 2004 I saw in the papers of a hospitalization in 1999 that my ovary(/ies?) were inflamed.)
I have been in the hospital for 2 weeks and as I came out a week later I had lost so much weight that I was only 47 kilos. They examined my blood again, but everything was okay. I could eat what I wanted but I stayed on 47 kilos.

Post Traumatic Dystrophy
When I was 20 years old I got Post Traumatic Dystrophy (PTD) after falling from the stairs. My left leg got black from toes till knee, that was the first time I had to use a wheelchair. I had so-called cold dystrophy, my lower leg was freezing cold. Every lightest touch hurt a lot, even a sheet. For example, I couldn't sit in the sun, because this caused a lot more pain. I were to be hospitalised where I would get a tube in my spine cord and carotid artery. However during this hospitalization (2 years after getting PTD) I were lucky that the blackness was going down more and more towards my ankle and so I could go home without surgery. Nowadays this surgery isn't done anymore, because it is too dangerous and because it doesn't do you much good. After several months I could walk again. However I still have blue spots around my ankle and my legs also get blue/red/purple when I sit. I have no idea tho if this can also be caused due to (a possbile bad blood flow due to) severe ME?

Depressive
When I was 23 years old I got very depressed because of a very difficult divorce, I didn’t want to life anymore. Before this I had complaints like headache, throat inflammation, tiredness, muscle pain, joint pain. Because I was depressed they said that the depression caused these symptoms. I have been in therapy for a couple of months, the depression was gone but the complaints stayed and even got worse.

Falling a sleep behind the wheel
Then I moved to another house and meanwhile I kept sporting. As I was finished moving I collapsed, the doctor said I had to stay in bed for two weeks to rest. A week later I got a virus infection and had to take antibiotics.
Because of the depression I hadn’t worked for a year. After the infection I got back to work. Then I got more and more tired and got more complaints like bad memory, bad concentration, blackouts and so on. Because I wanted to work I stopped sporting. The only thing I did was working for 40 hours a week, cook a bit and sleep. In weekends I cleaned the house a bit and sleep. I even have fallen a sleep while driving. On the way to work I regularly woke up not remembering the miles I already had left behind me.

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