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Middle of March I started again with the birth control pill (microgynon 30), this because I again needed (more then) a moth to recover from my monthly period. Before I had recovered from my period, it was already time for the next… so it is not doing any good. The first week of pill-use I was sicker; more exhausted, more pain, more dizzy, more stomach ache etc. After a week however I felt even a bit better then before pill-usage, I had even a bit more energy! According to dr. Tisscher my hormones are not working very well (blood work of dr. v. Montfort already showed this in January 2002) and the pill has just give me that little push to feel a bit better.

Unfortunately short after something bad happened.
I had interest in a blue maine coon and the cattery had told me I had the first choice, the kitten would be born somewhere March/April 2005. However she had another cute kitten in which we had interest and so I asked her about him. Henk could come and see begin March. A woman however reacted a bit earlier then us and she of course had first choice over this kitten. So we cancelled the appointment and told her we would wait till that woman had decided. This because the cattery is about 2 hours drive, so we thought this was a logical choice. Later on that woman cancelled and so we asked when Henk could come. Suddenly we could an email back that according to her I am too sick at the moment for a kitten. I couldn’t believe this, she didn’t know me, has never seen me so what gives her the right to judge about me?! Through email I told her this and asked for explanation. I didn’t get a reaction so I emailed her if she had received my mail. According to my opinion it’s a completely normal question to ask if she got my mail, however for some reason she got mad about it. I got a mail back from her that she obliged to give me an explanation. But that’s not what I asked, I only asked for an explanation and if she really denied me a kitten because of my illness. If my illness is really the reason then I think that is discrimination and I also told her this. I also tried to make her clear that it’s not about refusing a kitten but because of the reason (my illness). I wrote among others: “It’s your kitten and it’s your decision to whom you sell that kitten, but it is my decision whether I am able to have another kitten or not”. Appearantly she doesn’t understand this sentence, because she keeps saying that I claim she has to sell the kitten to me but that’s absolutely not what I say. The only thing I say is that NOT she can decide if I am too sick (for a kitten)… that is just like forbidding me to have children because I am sick. If I lived on my own, I think she indeed has the right to deny me a kitten because of my heahth… at last I can’t take of the kitten. However I live together with Henk and we both have cats and decide together if we are able to have another kitten or not and that it’s not up to her to decide. Besides we have a pretty big house and a large garden which is catproof so none of the cats can escape and walk on the street and so there can’t be a reason to deny us a kitten. Due to my illness I am always at home and so our cats get all the attention… I think even more then the cats of people who work (like some catteries for example).

Due to all this I am pretty shaken up; crying, not sleeping, depressive. Due to this I realized again how much this damn disease has already taken from me (job, sports, hobbies, social contacts, ‘friends’, family, being able to buy a house) and it hurts. I first had to process this again, accept it and give it a place and as usual I managed it again.

March 2004 part 2

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