The past years (since 1998) I have had a couple of times a Near-Death-Experience (NDE). The first 2 times I was somewhat startled, I didn’t know what happened to me. Meanwhile I don’t worry anymore about this when it happens again. In the beginning I didn’t know what was going on, I do had a presumption about what it was, but I wasn’t sure… till I saw a TV-program about NDE.
Every time that I have had a NDE, they were all the same… every time I saw a white tunnel and after that I came somewhere where it was really nice.
I can remember 1 time really good; my parents were visiting us, I was too sick for visitors, but I had to get something to eat. I felt falling away more and more and got sicker and sicker. I couldn’t bear all that commotion and the noise, so I let me bring to the garage on a mattress by Henk. Where we then lived we had a garage in the house. If I remember correct this was in 1999. So I lay on the mattress under a quilt. It wasn’t cold in the garage. While I lay there I started feeling real funny as if I was slipping away and it felt as if I kept on falling with no end. I also had the feeling that I left my body through my toes… this is a real weird feeling and exactly this was told in that TV-program. First I went through a tunnel with white light, but the white light didn’t hurt my eyes… it was a bright light, but also a soft light. Then I came on a place which was really pretty and felt real serene. You don’t have the colours and the flowers I saw there here on earth. These colours and flowers aren’t also describable, but they were GORGEUS. And the feeling I had there… it was so quiet and serene that I really LOVED it.
I don’t know how long I had been ‘gone’. I believe that I have laid in the garage for about 2 hours, but I don’t know how long I have been on that place… it seemed very long.
As I ‘came back’ I felt some kind of lack, but I didn’t know what. I knew/felt that I had been somewhere and that I had seen something real special, but I didn’t dare to admit to myself that it really was a NDE. I also wasn’t sure if it was this or that I maybe had dreamed it. The weird thing was however that I meant that I had seen and experienced it before and that it didn’t felt as a dream.
Until I saw that TV-program I wasn’t sure what I had experienced. But in that TV-program I heard exactly that what I had seen and felt… so it had to be a NDE.
After that program I have thought a lot about it and so I found out why that place and that feeling felt so familiar… I had been there more often. I actually didn’t dear to admit it to myself till then.
It is now a while ago that I experienced this the last time, but I know that if it happens again I will not be afraid anymore… I even have longed for it for a while so beautiful and nice was it. Since that time in the garage I am not afraid at all anymore to die, not that I was afraid before but now I won’t mind if I should die.I am glad that I was allowed to experience it… it at some way has given me a certain inner peace… that everything is okay… it doesn’t matter what happens, I will end up in a very beautiful place.
