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As I was ready with my site last Wednesday, 22 May something weird happened to me – it’s hard to explain – it was as if I fell away in between; this has lasted for 3,5 hours. I was talking to my mother on the phone because I felt weird and I asked her if she maybe had given me something wrong to eat – it was as if I was totally drunk. Of course I haven’t eaten anything wrong so that’s not it. Apparently I fell away during that phone call. Henk wasn’t home, so my mom called my neighbor and she came quickly.
She said that I acted really weird and that I in between fell away each time and it seemed that I was absent she said. The one moment she thought that everything was okay again and the next moment I was gone again. I kept on repeating things I already had said.
For me it seemed as if time went real slow – in slow-motion – and each time that I fell away I saw a flash before my eyes; I had the feeling that I repeatedly fainted or maybe fell asleep or so. I will try to write how it went below here:
 
< flash >
What was I doing or thinking or saying? Ooh yes, I was editing a picture on the pc. What was it that I wanted to do with it? Ooh yes, I wanted ... uh I don’t know anymore? I feel so strange, what is going on? Ooh yes, that picture...
< flash >
Uh, what has happened? It is as if my view is different now, that I see different. Why does the telephone lay on my bed? Ooh yes, I wanted to call mom, or have I already called... I can’t remember anymore. I thought I was doing something? What was it again?
< flash >
Linda, what are you doing here? Are you here for long now? What, have I called mom?! What is going on? I feel so strange. Wait a minute, I was thinking something else or doing or saying? Joyce, I call Joyce, she also uses marijuana and maybe she knows what this is?
< flash >
Ooh yes, I wanted to edit a picture. No, I wanted something else or I was doing something else... but what was it? I don’t get it. I thought that I was doing something else or did I want to but haven’t I done it yet?
< flash >
I wanted to call mom, I think, cause why else lays the phone here??? I just don’t get it. He, Linda, what are you doing here, are you long here? What is it that I wanted to do? I can’t remember anymore.
< flash >
I wanted to call Joyce... or have I called her already? I don’t know. Well, I call her, she will know if I have already called her... but why did I want to call here?? What was it again?
< flash >
I was editing a picture. How must I do to that? Uh, haven’t I thought this before? I don’t get it.
< flash >
Call Joyce. Hi Joyce, I feel so weird...
 
And then there follows a strange conversation which I can’t recite, but my help can’t also recite it and she has heard it… I spoke so uncorrelated and I fell away in between.
Joyce also thinks it is a weird conversation and she noticed that something was wrong; she also noticed that I fell away in between. That is now 3 people who noticed that I fell away in between: my mom, Linda and Joyce.
It was really weird and confusing and I still don’t get it. Accidentally that same day my gp came, but by then it was already much less. He also didn’t know what it was; it could be a migraine-attack but it also can be a delayed working of the medicinal cannabis tea which I had drunk about 2 hours earlier. In the evening I was still confused and I wasn’t really able to write. With difficulty I managed to update my site – I intended to do so and then it will also happen.

It’s now Sunday, 26 May and I still feel weird in my head. I have found out that it has happened to me before. I also thought that it felt known, but I didn’t know anymore from when. Well I keep up a journal of how I feel and what I have done that day and so I have checked it and I came up with 3 dates that it happened to me before but not as extreme as this time. Because of this I now know that it can’t be due to the marijuana because the first date is 6 March and I didn’t use marijuana back then. However it is possible that the marijuana has amplified it…
I still have that weird warm electric feeling in my head.
!If someone knows what it was and/or knows the cause I would like to hear it!

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